I went through 6 months of people I thought were my friends spreaden rumors about it all. I burried him on valentines day, he was 4 months an 4 days old. He was born the day my granmother died. Some friends, it took a year and a half for them to say it was s.i.d.s

I now have another child. so that is 5. 4 whom live with me. I also have a 11 year old step daughter who i dont see cus her mother is a bitch an all she wants is money. and trying to throw my husband now in jail. My mother is a 2 faced back stabbing bitch who is always trying to get money from me even though she has a job…wtf…

I depend on my ex to pay my bills cus i cant have a job cus my sons cancer and he cant even pay it on a regular bases has like 8 kids he claims is his and r not. So im always at home changing diapers or cleaning up puke. I have 1 friend who I can talk to and trust.

My mother is always calling cps to try to get me in trouble. She is always going around telling people how she takes care of my kids because i cant and I’m a worthless mother she goes and tells my kids that there dad is not there real dad, and they dont have to listen to him.

I live in a 2 bedroom trailer. Smaller than a cardboard box, cus i cant afford nothing more than that. I couldnt get a job if I wanted one cus I cant afford to take a fucking ged test in order to have a danm job that pays enough to waste the gas to get there and back. Nor can I pay a baby sitter. My kids are out of control, the bad little kids and the way my stepdaughters being raised im gonna be a grandma.. im 26 thats in a year an shes only 11…..great job there….

I get a fine, and have to pay 380$~ within a month.

My new job started few days later, and I thought it was going to be ok cause I’d get paid before a month had gone = can pay the fine in time.

Boss tells me after 3 weeks, that payment for this months work is paid the month after. Already spent every last penny I had on weed. No money and I’ve gotta pay the fine in 7 days.

Grade School: Everyone hated me. I was the wierd one. I was the one that got bullied by everyone, boys and girls. Couldn’t get a real girl because everyone thought I was ugly. Teachers actually reccomended I see a therapist because of all the bullying. When, I tried to tell my parents about the bullies, they were doing what they usually do. Arguing. So again I just repeated my DAILY routine.

At the age of Nine in the 4th grade, was when my mother died. Heart problems. Didn’t even make any fucking sense. She seemed perfectly healthy at the age of 27. Guess nobody gives a fuck anymore ’cause my parents are still arguing. I forgot to mention that it wasn’t my Mom and Dad that argued. It was my entire household. That includes my Mom, Dad, Uncle, Aunt, Grandma, and Grandpa. That’s a fucking war. My dad joined the army when I was young, so he wasn’t always around. But when he was, he’d always get included into the argument. Dad left mom after he went AWOL. Turned out to be gay. I still love him more than anything and he still loves me the same. It’s just the fact that he moved to the other side of the country is what makes me upset. We still talk from time to time.

As for now, It’s my Grandparents, Aunt, and uncle that argue. My uncle is the problem. Hell, my parents are arguing as I type this. Wanna know why? Because my Grandparents got my uncle chicken nuggets instead of a fish sandwhich. He’s destroying half of the kitchen because of it, like he always does. Middle School: Living hell on Earth. I was in love with a chick who didn’t even talk to me most of the time. No girl talked to me. Why? Cuz they thought I was ugly. All my guy friends were fucking assholes, save a few. Then it was just about telling this girl how I felt and see if she even gave a damn. Fucking girls man, they’re killing me. Not even the ugly chick of the class wanted to date me. Why? Cuz she thought I was too ugly. Conceited bitch. But I’ll tell ya. If I had never met the woman I love, I woulda offed myself a long time ago. Still think about doin it now. But I guess I’ll just pussy out like the last time, and continue to listen to my parents argue.

Everything Sucks.